Wednesday, October 17, 2012

it won't be like this for long...

my loves.

This evening was quite possibly the worst one we've ever had. I don't know why. Jake wasn't feeling well, Zach was being obnoxious to him, they were arguing with each other then whining about the other which turned into screaming. Everytime they screamed Emily screamed. It was a "I want to lock myself in the bathroom" sort of night...only I couldn't because Daniel is at school and although the boys could fend for themselves with dry cereal for dinner, Emily couldn't (although as much as her brothers love her, they'd get the gallon of milk out and take care of her. and who knows, she might've had her first taste of frosted flakes.). I just felt like we couldn't get it together tonight and wanted to cry. I kept singing the Darius Rucker song "It won't be like this for long" whenever I felt like I was done and that would help for a little bit. It was an afternoon where I wanted to call my mom and say "Can you please come help me? I need it tonight!" Only problem is in the 4 hours it would've taken her to get here I would've had them in bed... if we only lived in VA.

I have to say though as I rocked Emily to sleep with her snuggled up in my arms, nestling her little head by my neck all of the worries from the day just left. I teared up and held her tight and told her tomorrow would be better.

I broke my rule and let the boys watch 30 minutes of TV too this evening. I had to. They needed to relax a little bit and it just wasn't happening. I finally feel like there's some calm to our day.

My sink full of dishes will be waiting for me in the morning as will the basket of laundry on my couch. Tomorrow will be better. This phase is gonna fly by, If I can just hold on, It won't be like this for long.

From yesterday:

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